Tuesday, October 21, 2014

What Happened To My Marriage

"Do you have a website or some way to contact you?" the woman from the audience asked me after I concluded the morning session of the retreat I was speaking at. Since she was one of many who had asked, I decided to build a website. Making that decision was quick and painless. Actually doing the work included much suffering. With no technological experience and the complete lack of a tech-brain, I began work. Then I thew things. And yelled. And even cried a little at one point. But, alas, it is done. Hopefully.

My current blog content - fromthecarpoollane.com - is moving to my new website: whathappenedtomymarriage.com. If you would like to continue to receive the blog emailed to you, just go to whathappenedtomymarriage.com and enter your email address. It will only take a minute and will continue to work the same as before (again, hopefully!) Please let me know if there is a snag in my system. And thank you for being a source of support and encouragement all this time!

Monday, October 6, 2014

Anniversary

"Let's open the gifts now," I told Mike, too excited to wait.
"Here? In the car?" he asked.
"Sure. Why not?" I said, grabbing the fat envelope with my name on it and ripping it open.
"It's the book you've been wanting," he explained when I stared at the unfolded paper. "It's not out yet, so I preordered it and printed the receipt. Do you like it?"
"Um, I like it so much that I also preordered it for you."
"What?" he asked. "This exact book?"
"This exact one," I confirmed. "Oh well," I said after several moments of stunned silence. "I got you two gifts, so just ignore the folded paper when you open your present."
"Okay," he said, pulling tissue paper out of of the red gift bag.
"You know what it is, right?" I asked when he stared silently at the DVD cover. "You've wanted this movie for a long time."
"Yeah," he whispered. "It's just that I bought it for you this morning."
"What? Why?"
"Well, I don't know, but I'm a little freaked out right now."
"Maybe we should eat."
"Twenty-three years," Mike said as our salads arrived. "It seems like someone should give us a Lifetime Achievement Award for making it this long."
"I know!" I agreed, slicing into my delectable steak. "I'm just sad there aren't any movies out right now that we really want to see. I hate going to one that we aren't excited about."
"Well, we could skip the movie and just rent one from Redbox."
"And watch it at home with a house full of people?" I asked. "Not very romantic."
"We could put a Do Not Disturb note on the door to the TV room."
"Oh, yeah! Then we could watch a better movie in our pajamas!"
"Do you find it hard to focus on the movie when right out that window we can see the kids shooting off fireworks?" I asked Mike, snuggled under a fluffy blanket.
"It's a bit distracting," he admitted. "I'm sure they will be fine, though."
"They were hoping to watch Dr. Who until we claimed the TV."
"Do you want to call them in and we can all watch it together?"
Twenty minutes later Mike passed bowls of popcorn to all the teenagers crowded onto the couch, and I got out extra blankets.
"Hey," Mike nudged me as the Dr. Who theme music filled the room, "there are your Lifetime Achievement Awards." I looked at the row of kids tucked under blankets, sharing popcorn, smelling of outdoors, fire, and sweat.
"Yeah," I agreed, "there they are. Happy Anniversary."

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

I Owe Someone Food

My dog is all kinds of naughty. And his blue eyes mesmerize us into letting him get by with most of it. I know, though, that he is a bit scary. He looks large and powerful. When people see him, they think he might be a wolf. Then they think he might eat them. They don't know that he lets babies pull his fur and poke him in the eye or that he runs terrified at the bark of tiny dogs. In fact, he ran away from a min pin so fast one time that he sprained his ankle. So, we've been keeping him chained up lately. There is a lot of construction going on near our house, and we don't want him to frighten the workers. Also, we don't want him to return home with cement plastered all over his paws and legs. Again.


He wants to run though, so he sneaks out any chance he finds. Which he did recently when we had a house full of door-leaving-open teenagers. I noticed him in our front yard a few hours later, and I was happy to see that he was mostly free of cement, but felt concerned when I saw that he was guarding something. I walked toward him and he picked up his treasure in his mouth and pranced proudly toward me. As he walked toward me across the yard, he pranced prouder and prouder. Wondering what he may have killed and worried that it might be a cute bunny, I didn't want to look at what he laid at my feet. Until I saw what it was.

A peeled orange in a ziplock baggie.

I'm sure that whatever construction worker he took it from was terrified. And hungry. 

Monday, September 22, 2014

Oh My Homecoming

Last month:
"Hey, are any of you going to homecoming?" I asked my children as we ate supper.
"No," Josiah said.
"I don't want to," Drake said.
"I think I will go with a group of my friends," Emery said.

Last 48 hours:
"Hey, I am taking a friend to homecoming," Drake announced.

Last 24 hours:
"I'm going to homecoming after all," Josiah announced.
"You know you have a band competition and senior pictures that day?"
"Yes, it will be fine."

Last 12 hours:
"Do I need one of those flower things for the girl I'm taking to homecoming," Josiah texted me.
"YES!" I panicked. "You need to get to the flower shop right now and beg them for a corsage. I have to take Emery to get her make up done, and I'll meet you back home. Good luck."

"Hey Mom," Drake said when I returned with a beautiful Emery, "I think my dress clothes need ironed."
"Don't you know how to iron?"
"I don't remember how."
"Then this is a great time for a refresher course," I said, feeling smug. I plugged in the iron and told Drake to grab his clothes and meet me at the ironing board. "What is this?" I asked uncrumpling the ball of fabric he handed me.
"My pants," Drake said.
"Why do they look like they belong to a small child?"
"Well, I haven't worn them for a long time."
"These won't fit you. Do you have any other pants?"
"I think there are some on the top shelf of my closet."
"Go put them on and meet me in the bathroom. I have to curl Emery's hair. Hurry, it's nearly time to go."

"Drake, those are huge," I said staring at the pants that would have easily fit two of him.
"Well, they are all I have."
"Seeing as how we have no choice, grab a belt and keep your shirt untucked."
"Oh, and do I need one of those flower things for the girl I'm going with?"
"You're killing me."

"Okay," I said to our homecoming huddle by the door, "here is the plan. I will drop Emery off at her friend's house and she will ride with them to take pictures at the pond. From there, I will drive to the park to take pictures of Drake and then speed over to the pond to get some pictures of Emery. Dad is with Josiah at his senior pictures and will get pictures of him and his group as soon as senior pictures are done. Break!"

Breathing a sigh of relief, I drove leisurely from dropping off Emery to meet up with Drake's group of friends. I knew I had plenty of time, in fact, I would likely arrive five minutes early.
"Hello," I answered my phone.
"MOM!" Drake, said in a rushed voice - as panicked as he ever gets - "I forgot the homecoming tickets at home."
"Are you already at the park?"
"Yes!"
My mind raced doing mom geography and came to the only solution. "Okay, I will go home and get them, but it will take me twenty-five minutes from where I am. I will miss your pictures, so have someone get copies for me. Then I will meet you at the restaurant with the tickets."

I sped faster than legally allowed to our house in the country, located the tickets, and raced to the pond just in time to snap a few glorious pictures of Emery looking gorgeous. Feeling proud and a bit emotional - BECAUSE MY BABY IS GOING TO HOMECOMING - I began driving to the restaurant Drake was at to drop off his forgotten ticket.

"Hello," I answered my phone.
"MOM!" Josiah said in a rushed voice, "Dad just left me with my group, but I forgot the homecoming tickets at home!"

"At least Makenna didn't go to homecoming this year," I said to Mike later, yawning from exhaustion.
"I know!" he agreed. "This was crazy!"

"Hello," I answered my phone.
"MOM!" Makenna cried, "A huge man fell on me at work and my ankle hurts! I can't walk."
It was broken.

I'm not a fan of homecoming weekend.





Monday, September 15, 2014

Cute Overload

There is a pile of kittens on my porch. Kittens are a vortex of time. Even walking near them sucks hours out of my day. I try to resist their tiny meows and their fluffy cuddles, but cuteness is actually addictive. I find myself holding them all in my lap even though I have no memory of walking to them. I tell myself to be strong, but, before I know it, I am kissing their fuzzy heads.

I think that the cuteness is exponentially magnified relative to the amount of kittens there are. I have five. One has three legs, so his cute factor equals twelve kittens. He is just learning to walk, and he does most of it on his face. It is heart wrenching, and I cannot stop trying to help him.

You can try to ignore the pull but you will fail. You will wonder how they are, if they are okay, if they have changed overnight, and once you make eye contact the day is wasted. They have you.

This is why I have given up trying to accomplish anything.

Monday, September 8, 2014

So Much Pain

My lovely daughter is currently studying esthetics, which really means skin care. Basically, that means she makes people look good. She's learning about stuff you put on and take off your face and rub on and take off your skin. 

"Mom, will you come in and let me practice on you so I can get some hands-on hours in?" she kindly asked me.
"Sure. Like you'll give me a facial or something?" I asked, innocently.
"Yeah. I'll see what I need to get off my list, and I'll sign you up for what I need to do."

Since I love her and want to promote her education, I scheduled an appointment. Now, let me explain that I am not a fancy person. I do not do complicated beauty procedures. I have not plucked, waxed, tanned, massaged, etc. I shower. That seems good enough to me.

When I arrived for my appointment, my sweet, beautiful daughter told me she needed to wax my face.

My face spent the rest of the day on fire. On FIRE, Ya'll. A burning torch kind of fire. And I did say, "Ya'll," and I'm not even Southern. That's how much fire my face was on.

And I still love her. That's the power of momhood.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Getting Disney

Five kittens were born to us last Friday. They are black and dark gray striped and one is all black with a white belly and paws. One has only three legs. Mama Cat is kind enough to let us hold them as often as we like, which is often indeed.

After the birth, I cleaned up because, although kittens are cute, the the birthing of kittens is horribly gross. Seriously. Nature is gross. So I cleaned up and settled the kittens into a box covered with a soft towel. Then Mama Cat hopped in and comforted her babies. They climbed all over her and fell asleep in crazy positions. I heard heavy breathing and noticed my two dogs - noses pressed against the glass on the other side of the door. Then the obvious father jumped into the widow sill and peered at his kittens through the screen, meowing softly.

It was a Disney moment.

I'm not going to get anything productive done. Ever.